Someone Dear and New year goals.

People know how special my grandmother was to me and still is. We had our Valentine's dinner on Sat Feb 12th at church and we had are niece Kara with with that night. I took my little girl Laci and Kara to the restroom and a sister that was close to my grandmother came in behind us and before she left she turned to me and said you remind me so much of your grandmother when I seen you come in tonight. All I could say was thank you. But to my self  I was think what a great complement that was. And early that day my thoughts were on her when I was little all the kids were at my grandparents in the summer. Well kids being kids (we were mean to each other) one of us would have a nosebleed and my grandmother would all ways take us and tell us to repeat after her and we would she would read form the Bible (Ezekiel 16:6 And when I passed by thee, and saw thee polluted in thine own blood, I said unto thee when thou whou was in thy blood, Live: yea, I said unto the when thou wast in thy blood, Live.) it is a verse that stop blood she would have us say it with her until the blood stop running. Laci's nose was bleeding and I done this with her until the blood stop the whole time that we said it I just cry ed and cry ed just remember so long ago my grandmother do it with us when we were little. The small things is what I remember the most.

As for my New Year goal.
Well just like everyone in the world the 1st thing is to lose weight. Well there is a program in GA called Thrive and all it does is teaches you to lose weight no pills. You go to class and they teach you how to eat and live your life but lose the weight at the same time. I joined the program for 3 months and have been on it for 7 weeks this far and I have lost a total of 22.2 lbs and 21 inches over all 15.5 in my core alone. I feel great and love doing it. There are times that I think to my self  why are you doing this what is it for you will gain it all back when you stop. Well the number one thing they ask you to do is your why. I will tell you my why. I have a fear of dieing young and very over weight I don't want to wind up with sleeping disorders like my dad and brothers. Or have to control my sugar with med. And having my family but me in the ground with a Crane. No I don't think that I would have let myself get that big but what you don't realize is you do. By looking at me some people would say that I am not that big or that i am just big bones but bone has nothing to do with it I am fat and I know it. I have battled with my weight for years know when I became pregnant with Laci I lost 60lbs where most people gain. After Laci was born I gain 30 lbs back slow but I did gain it back. My grandmother was the one that asked me to get my weight under control just like she asked my aunt to do the same. Well this past year my aunt started taking control of her weight and I done the same but my heart was not in to it like her was she found a reason to lived she weighed almost 300lb and wearing a size 26 now she is down to 200 something and wearing a size 18 the last time I talked to her. With me it started for real at the 1st of this year when I decided to take my life back.. And I have my life and thank God for it each and everyday. When I don't have the strength to make it through the day I know he is there to guide me the rest of the way.

Shanda

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Singer Sewing

Box from grandmother














Singer 66 that I bought.














The one I bought for 5.00














The One I got from Jesse



OK I love Singer Sewing Machine's. I love them for the fact that they are built to last a long time and most have lasted a long time. My husband bought me a Singer about 4 years ago. And I have sewed a lot of thing on it. I have been wanting a older style machine for some time. You know the one that hides away and it looks like a table sitting there. Well I FOUND ONE we went to a flea market about 10 mile up from my house and I seen it in the back of a truck. Asked the lady that was sitting there with the table how much she wanted for it and she said the last time she talked to her mom she said that she wanted 5.00 because she did not want to take it back home with her. I want to talk with the mother just to find out how long it had been since it was used last ( the mom was in the restroom) she told me about 2 yrs ago and that it worked great then. So I gave her the 5.00 and brought it home with me took it out and went to sew with it would not pick up the bottom thread out of the bobbin. So I thought maybe it is the tension it was not after oiling and working on the tension and it still not working.Thought I would take it to a shop and have someone work on it did not know who to take it to. Remembered Val saying something on her blog about the guy that fixed her machine(lifeslittlegarden.blogspot.com) so since I go to church with her and we live in the same area thought I would call her and ask how the guy is and where his shop is. Did not get Val (haha) but did get her sweet husband and he told us where the was. Went to him and he FIXED IT. It was the time went out. While I was there I found a Singer c66 which I love and it was a great price so I bought it. It was not 5.00 but it was a deal he sold it to me for the parts that he had put in it. I love it. Plus there was a little box of sewing parts that my grandmother had gave me when Jesse had bought me my 1st machine she said that it had been to hers many years ago and that there might be some parts in it that I could use on my if something was to happen. Of course the parts don't work on mine but I did take it and ask what machine it works on he told me and he has one to SALE. I did not buy it but just maybe I will. Because it has all these little disk that goes with it and they make different stitches and I want to use them so bad.

I thought of you both today as I always do. I know you are with me as I go though my days. I feel you near me when I am down I can hear you both telling me just to push through. I know I don't all was do everything just right or say the right things all the time. But as you know from my last blog my faith has been down so much since my grandparents have pasted I have to say probably before they passed. I just have felt that no matter which way I turned that somethings was all was there blocking me from my move to get closer. I had to work Sat and I work with a person I go to church with they if I was going to be at Sunday School in the morning. I have not been going to Sunday school for awhile now. But I came home and talked to Jesse and told him I wanted to go that I was asked if we were going to be there so I told him I wanted to go. So we got up and got dressed and went the service was about prayer. I have been praying for the last month for me to get past things and start putting God first in my life and for me to feel him. Today I feel as if I gotten my answer. In church before the preacher got up to speak. We always have a group sing well they started singing and the spirit fell and I could feel the lord come over me and just started crying and have not since every time I think of that feeling. I have been also praying for me to do a small part in church to get involved in so that way my faith could build. Since my little girl turned 4 and stated do things with the little kids at church I have wanted to help with that I have helped with the little children before in the past so at Easter when I called a friend to let them know I wanted to help she told me that it would not be a problem it they could find me something to do. I told her that I would be there at 8 in the morning at the restaurant to help she said OK. (She had me do the cash register something I have not done in awhile at a restaurant I know now way I wanted to leave a restaurant.) Anyway maybe in someway he has been answering my prayers and I have not cared to really listen until know. For those of you reading this blog please keep praying for me and my family.(I know that this may look like ramdom thoughts but my fingers do not type as fast as my head thinks at time, if it did you would not be able to read it.)

Happy Birthday Grandma

Happy Birthday Grandma. I can see you now in heaven having the most joyfullest time today this is your 1st Birthday there. I can see you with all your loved ones having the greatest time I miss you more and more each passing day. The thing I miss the most is hearing your voice. At time's I feel so alone that all I want to do is pick up the phone and call you and talk. I go the the grave yard to just try to be close to you and try to feel you near me even though I know that that was a shell that held your precious spirit. I hope you knew hope much you mean to me even though you are gone to your home in heaven. You have been the greatest in pack on my life and always will be.I pray that I can get as close to God as you were that I can hand over everything that troubles me that I can one day feel his precious touch the way you have always felt when you prayed. As I am sitting here typing this I can just hear you saying trust in the lord and he will give you everything your heart desires. I am ashamed to say that my faith has not been that great. At time's I feel myself slipping away and feeling lost not knowing which way to turn or what to do I go though my day just hoping to get to the next. As Laci's Birthday nears I miss you more for I know the day after you will have been gone for a whole year. Laci is growing up so much and is so close to Hilda and Sonny that it make me look back each day at my childhood with you and grandpa. I was so blessed to have both of you in my life to show me how to live to be happy in what I do to never judge me to always encourage me to the fullest.I hope from this day forward that I can show Laci that. Again Happy Birthday Mamaw with love always Shanda.

And on another note please pray for my Aunt Venita she just found out that she has cancer of the breast and goes Monday for surgery.

Where to Start

OK let me start with VBS. This was Laci's 1st time to go to VBS. And really be a part of it.It started last Monday and went Thur Friday Night it took her until Wednesday to get the hang of it and the really understand it. But she was great and listened to what was said. Sunday morning was the ending sermonizes that is were Sunday is a children's service and the kids that were at VBS get to sing there songs in front of the church. When it came time for them to sing Laci did not want to go up there so I gave her my book to my camera so she would just stand there with it. Until Jesse Dad said something or made a face at her and then she made a face at him and he got her attention off of the singing. Then Brayden another little boy wanted to sit with her and read the book and when he would sit next to her she would move over so he would move over and by the time you seen them they were almost to the end of the riser. After the service was over the children has actives to play and do over in Ryman Hall which is our fellowship hall. They had 3 blow up things 2 slides and 1 that you hit people and knock them down. Then there was Mendy the clown and see painted there face & a magic show. There was a train that Bub and Reba done Laci just had all kinds of fun. And what did she do the min the car took off we were not even out of the parking lot and she was out. Ok that is VBS.


I have stated selling my hair bows and my I spy bag at a friends store at the mall.
I am just stating this so hopefully it will do good. He has been after me for about a year to do something with my talents. But I have to say I have been afraid to do it because I did not think people would like them but however people do like it. Laci wares my hair bows all the time and people ask where I got them. So I thought maybe I should stat making them to sell. Here are a few pic to leave you with