I thought of you both today as I always do. I know you are with me as I go though my days. I feel you near me when I am down I can hear you both telling me just to push through. I know I don't all was do everything just right or say the right things all the time. But as you know from my last blog my faith has been down so much since my grandparents have pasted I have to say probably before they passed. I just have felt that no matter which way I turned that somethings was all was there blocking me from my move to get closer. I had to work Sat and I work with a person I go to church with they if I was going to be at Sunday School in the morning. I have not been going to Sunday school for awhile now. But I came home and talked to Jesse and told him I wanted to go that I was asked if we were going to be there so I told him I wanted to go. So we got up and got dressed and went the service was about prayer. I have been praying for the last month for me to get past things and start putting God first in my life and for me to feel him. Today I feel as if I gotten my answer. In church before the preacher got up to speak. We always have a group sing well they started singing and the spirit fell and I could feel the lord come over me and just started crying and have not since every time I think of that feeling. I have been also praying for me to do a small part in church to get involved in so that way my faith could build. Since my little girl turned 4 and stated do things with the little kids at church I have wanted to help with that I have helped with the little children before in the past so at Easter when I called a friend to let them know I wanted to help she told me that it would not be a problem it they could find me something to do. I told her that I would be there at 8 in the morning at the restaurant to help she said OK. (She had me do the cash register something I have not done in awhile at a restaurant I know now way I wanted to leave a restaurant.) Anyway maybe in someway he has been answering my prayers and I have not cared to really listen until know. For those of you reading this blog please keep praying for me and my family.(I know that this may look like ramdom thoughts but my fingers do not type as fast as my head thinks at time, if it did you would not be able to read it.)

Happy Birthday Grandma

Happy Birthday Grandma. I can see you now in heaven having the most joyfullest time today this is your 1st Birthday there. I can see you with all your loved ones having the greatest time I miss you more and more each passing day. The thing I miss the most is hearing your voice. At time's I feel so alone that all I want to do is pick up the phone and call you and talk. I go the the grave yard to just try to be close to you and try to feel you near me even though I know that that was a shell that held your precious spirit. I hope you knew hope much you mean to me even though you are gone to your home in heaven. You have been the greatest in pack on my life and always will be.I pray that I can get as close to God as you were that I can hand over everything that troubles me that I can one day feel his precious touch the way you have always felt when you prayed. As I am sitting here typing this I can just hear you saying trust in the lord and he will give you everything your heart desires. I am ashamed to say that my faith has not been that great. At time's I feel myself slipping away and feeling lost not knowing which way to turn or what to do I go though my day just hoping to get to the next. As Laci's Birthday nears I miss you more for I know the day after you will have been gone for a whole year. Laci is growing up so much and is so close to Hilda and Sonny that it make me look back each day at my childhood with you and grandpa. I was so blessed to have both of you in my life to show me how to live to be happy in what I do to never judge me to always encourage me to the fullest.I hope from this day forward that I can show Laci that. Again Happy Birthday Mamaw with love always Shanda.

And on another note please pray for my Aunt Venita she just found out that she has cancer of the breast and goes Monday for surgery.

Where to Start

OK let me start with VBS. This was Laci's 1st time to go to VBS. And really be a part of it.It started last Monday and went Thur Friday Night it took her until Wednesday to get the hang of it and the really understand it. But she was great and listened to what was said. Sunday morning was the ending sermonizes that is were Sunday is a children's service and the kids that were at VBS get to sing there songs in front of the church. When it came time for them to sing Laci did not want to go up there so I gave her my book to my camera so she would just stand there with it. Until Jesse Dad said something or made a face at her and then she made a face at him and he got her attention off of the singing. Then Brayden another little boy wanted to sit with her and read the book and when he would sit next to her she would move over so he would move over and by the time you seen them they were almost to the end of the riser. After the service was over the children has actives to play and do over in Ryman Hall which is our fellowship hall. They had 3 blow up things 2 slides and 1 that you hit people and knock them down. Then there was Mendy the clown and see painted there face & a magic show. There was a train that Bub and Reba done Laci just had all kinds of fun. And what did she do the min the car took off we were not even out of the parking lot and she was out. Ok that is VBS.


I have stated selling my hair bows and my I spy bag at a friends store at the mall.
I am just stating this so hopefully it will do good. He has been after me for about a year to do something with my talents. But I have to say I have been afraid to do it because I did not think people would like them but however people do like it. Laci wares my hair bows all the time and people ask where I got them. So I thought maybe I should stat making them to sell. Here are a few pic to leave you with

Sorry

Sorry I have been on the Twlight kick. And have Been going to VBS. for the last few weeks. Know that everything is getting back on track I will be able to getting back to bloging. Right now I am at work.When I get home will post the pic from VBS and what I was working on until I started reading the Twlight Saga Books. Which were great.
Shanda

Test Results

Well the test results are back and everything look's to be ok. I will share what has been going on before the accident of my grandparents my body has be acting strange to me. I have been bleeding off and on the the last month.I will go a week and off a week as the bleeding got worse I made appt and went to the doctor and she done a test it can back abnormal and I had to go back for another test the next went they went in and took some cells off. When she took them off she only found 3 and they were the size of a pin head. 2 days later the results came back and they were pre-cancer. She told me that it was a really low grade that I did not have to worry about it. I asked if the test would show a miscage and she told me no the reason I even asked is becouse a day after the fist vist I pass a large blood clot the size of my hand balled up. When this happed I was working and on my way home I called one of my cousins that is a nurse. I told her what happened and that is what she said it sounds like. Me I did not know what to think I have only had one preg. and it went fine. The doctor said that there was not anyway to tell if it had be a miscage that if it was it happened fast. So now you know more of what was going on and I think everyone of you that have been praying for me . Your friend Shanda

Burn's puls more

You people will think I am crazy but here goes. Has anyone out there ever heard of talking fire out of a burn. Krista you can not answer this question. I know that this is a verse in the bible but have never found it. I know where the verse is to stop the blood in the bible but the one for the burn I have never found if anyone that reads this knows where I can find it please let me know. Or just knows where this started at..



Ok I have found out that this is not ralley a verse in the bible. Still don't know where it came from do know that a woman can only teach it to a man and a man can only teach it to a woman. It can not be tought from woman to woman or man to man.
Know the reason I did not want Krista to answer this is becouse my Grandmother could do this she did not call it talking fire out of a burn but blowing fire out of a burn. The only reason I even brought up the subject is becouse my aunt asked me to write it down for her. See when Laci was 6 months old a iron fell on her little hand one night Jesse and I ran her to the calhoun E.R. On the way there I thought of my grandparents and thought that if they could pray that everything would be alright. They said they would and when they hung up my Dad called me to tell me the verse to blow the burn out my grandmother was on the other line telling him what to say and as the repeated it I would repeat after him. I dont know what it is but I know that it works when my cell cut off I just kept saying it over and over until we got ot the E.R about half way there Laci stoped crying and when we went in they took us right back and she was so calm the whole time. I guess I will never forget it my aunt Tiny asked me at for the verse and that is what brought up the whole thing of wanting to know where it is in the bible. I could not belive that is did not know it becouse of grandma doing it so much when I was little. She just said I always came to momma I thought she would be here for ever. My grandmother had a driect line to god that is why I all was called her and Grandpa to pray I asked my aunt who I could get to ask for pray now that they are gone. She just said that they are here with you just ask them. There has been some major problem with my body here lately and every night I have asked my grandparent to pray for me before I go to sleep. On Tuesday next week I have to go to the doctor to have some cells takeing out. For them to deturm what is going on. Please as you pray at night remember me and my family.